God’s word
says we are often like someone who looks in a mirror—we see the person there.
We look and assess, but then when we walk away we immediately forget what we
saw.
How often have
I looked into the mirror of God’s word with what I think are epiphanies and
revelations only to turn around and forget all I just read. I forget what I
just studied. I forget what the Word of God says even after reading it over and
over.
I get
frustrated. As many times as I have studied Paul’s letter to the Ephesians I
should have it memorized. Seriously. Memorized.
But I don’t.
And I forget
what it says.
Until the
Spirit reminds me. Until that Word becomes pertinent. Until it is needed to
speak to my circumstance. My situation. My predicament. My crisis. My heart.
I think of
Peter who spent 24/7 with Jesus for three years. Yet he forgot.
He assured
Jesus he would die for him. Would follow him anywhere. Peter meant it at the
time. Thought his words were truth. Thought his words were the reality. But
Jesus looked at him and spoke in sorrow.
Peter, before the rooster crows you
will deny me three times.
Incredulity
crossed the weathered face of Peter. His eyes locked with Jesus and he waited
for the familiar twinkle indicating a joke was coming; he waited for the punch
line. But the punch line didn’t come. Jesus’ words were not in jest. He wasn’t
teasing. And Peter couldn’t shake it off. He mumbled and muttered he would
never be the one to do such. He had been through everything with Jesus.
Like a man
looking in a mirror Peter turned away (Jesus asked him to pray, remember?). The
events of the night began to unfold. Fiercely intense.
Peter forgot
the rooster.
He forgot
much of Jesus’ teaching that night. Turn
the other cheek among them. In the
midst of his sword slicing off Malchus’ ear he forgot so much of what Jesus taught.
Somehow
Peter followed Jesus. Made it to the outer courtyard. Close enough to have a
line of vision to the interactions happening with Jesus.
But he forgot the
rooster.
You are not one of his disciples are
you? Don’t you
wonder what the tone was considering how quickly Peter spouted back in defense?
And Peter
forgot. Forgot Jesus’ warning.
Aren’t you one of his disciples?
And Peter
forgot. Forgot who Jesus told him he was. Forgot that he was a rock, albeit a
small one, but a rock nonetheless.
Didn’t I see you with him in the
olive grove?
And Peter
forgot. Forgot that the kingdom had come. Forgot all the words he had
proclaimed. HE forgot.
The rooster crowed.
The last
faint strains of the early morning crowing pierced through Peter’s flesh.
Daggered his heart. Collapsed the air from his lungs.
Even before
the rooster’s beak closed and his wings folded Peter remembered.
He
remembered Jesus’ words. Remembered the warning: the enemy had asked to sift Peter like wheat.
The ash from
the fire floated up on the warm currents of air, but Peter saw it only as chaff
flying.
And he wept.
Peter ran out
of the courtyard, bent.
Broken.
This great
burly, hard-core fisherman wept until his tears were spent. Depression
threatened.
Darkness loomed.
The enemy
hovered.
But the Holy
Spirit, who is the counselor and reminder of all truth, came to Peter.
The Holy Spirit
enabled him to remember something else he forgot.
He
remembered Jesus’ divine conjunction BUT.
But I have prayed for
you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back,
strengthen your brothers.
Peter remembered.
I thought my apostle
crush would be John, but no, it is Peter. Precious Peter.
Like him I forget God’s word.
I forget Jesus says the rooster will crow.
Surely not I say.
Certainly, Jesus, you jest.
Tamera, Tamera. Satan has asked to sift you like wheat.
In the midst of that
horrible revelation I could forget. Have forgotten. But like my brother
Peter, the Holy Spirit comes to me and reminds me of God’s truth.
The Spirit reminds
me that Jesus stated very clearly, but I
have prayed for you, Tamera.
Jesus has prayed for
me. That my faith would not fail. That I would turn back. And then I would strengthen
my sisters.
Friends, perhaps you
have forgotten. Forgotten the Word. Forgotten the warnings. Maybe you feel like
you are being sifted like wheat. You could be frustrated with yourself because
you study and pray, and study and pray some more but you just can’t seem to
remember or internalize.
Today, I want you to
remember: Jesus has prayed for you. He has prayed for your faith not to fail.
He has prayed for you to turn back. And then when you do he has given you a
mission: strengthen those around you.
Don’t panic if or
when the rooster crows.
I would prefer to
not EVER hear the rooster, but let’s be honest here. We are frail and fragile
humans.
The rooster will crow.
The Holy Spirit will remind and counsel.
The question is will
we be like Peter and remember and believe what Jesus said?
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